#Jonbenet Will Have Her Revenge On America.

I have known for a very long time that film director Ron Howard somehow gained access to my case files at Alberta Mental Health and this has recently been confirmed beyond a shadow of any doubt. I had already noted that Ron Howard, as of last year, had created a film school called #Imagine Impact in addition to his existing company #Imagine Entertainment and so I was already familiar his companies gematria. Anyhow as of yesterday I have accepted a prescription of #Aripiprazole for my anxiety. Initially I refused this prescription because it shares its simple gematria with #Vlad the Impalerwhich may seem like a silly reason to refuse medication but the association made me very uncomfortable so I opted to just deal with anxiety on my own. Since then Keith Flint commit suicide and the #details surrounding his death were incredibly stressful for me so I reconsidered and accepted the medication.

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For some reason I kept putting off taking the pill and when I had finally decided to sit down and force myself to take it a curious thought came to mind and I remembered the sound of Navi from Zelda; “Hey Listen!”. Navi is the name of Link’s slightly annoying Faerie guide in Zelda: Ocarina of Time. For those who dont know; Navi guides Link by telling him hints or guiding him to treasure and hidden passage ways etc. My Leathermen Skeletool is named Zelda which is engraved on the handle even still I thought this was a silly thing to think of and so given that I am prone to procrastination I decided I absolutely needed to know Navi’s gematria. I ran her numbers and didn’t find anything notable in the slightest. But something I did note was a deep and foreboding feeling about the pills. Now; I wish to make absolutely clear that I dont hear the voices except for those I willfully think of, things come to mind on occasion but its more like seeing a sparkly object in the grass or something, its there if you walk by and if you stand a certain way you can see the light it reflects. As a medium I have willfully chosen to limit any “messages” I get from my “guides” to slow and deliberate story-like promptings. The gist of it being; If I did “hear a voice” I would totally ignore it because such things are intrusive and upsetting. Its the same principle as a government not negotiating with terrorists. No one is allowed to touch me physically with out my permission and I imagine psychic phenomena would be comparable to that. That would be like inappropriate touching. In a purely hypothetical situation if it was me who had the “telepathic power” to communicate with others I would refuse to do so because its invasive… What right would I have to that? I would NEVER, EVER want to be the cause of someones schizophrenia, nor would I want to masquerade as some type of “Angel” or “Guide” or what ever because that would be wrong and not to mention arrogant and self absorbed on my part. Its the same reason why I have always refused to do Tarot readings for anyone. I second guess my own thoughts enough on my own and I would simply never want the responsibility that goes with telling someone their “fate”.

This was somehow different and I immediately felt as though Jonbenet (The Sikh version who wears a Turban and is Elvish) was by my side and she was very adamant and negatively charged toward the pills I was considering taking. Again; my real guides are forbidden from talking to me. To be totally honest I view Jonbenet as a kind of Tulpa who has been created through media and is somehow broadcasted through Ketamine and I am by no means the only one who thinks this either because the street name for Ketamine has been “Angel Dust” for years. Which is fair because I view myself as a composite spirit as well. At any rate; Ketamine is a very bizarre drug with a distinctly atemporal effect and a Sikh version of Jonbenet has haunted me since I over dosed on it a number of years ago. But all clairvoyance aside Jonbenet undeniably has a charge accrued from collective memory. Even the movie Kill Bill is arguably about Jonbenet (Beatrice Kiddo?) so again I am not the only one who thinks this and its actually as clear as day to anyone who actually thinks about it. This coupled with my losing a younger sister to suicide and my interest in writing makes me the prime candidate to write stories about her. I am not delusional, I am just working on a really great story about the misadventures of hilarious little Elves; (or hobbit half-lings). The writing process is really easy because the characters are so great. Anyhow that’s how I reconcile things and I feel its the perfect resolution. I am sort of a Halfling with Pelle Ohlin; who is named Slain in the story and Jonbenet is a Halfling with my deceased sister Danielle ie; Danbenet. Further adding to this symmetry is that the Norse God Freyr also had a sister named Freya; so there is a lot of potency with these characters and like I said it makes for an outstanding story that is really fun to write and imagine. Its the perfect therapy for me and I am not at all sorry about any of it because my characters are wonderful little angels, Jonbenet is very religious according to the story, she obsessively wears a hair covering and believes her hair is a “private part” that no one is aloud to see… Which even I think is strange. She is also very different from the little blond girl she once was; point in case: she has little side burns that she tries to cover up with these swooping sort of curls that stick out the sides of her Turban. It suits her though.

So anyhow I decided maybe I should run the numbers and see if there were any connections between the gematria of the pills and my harasser after all I am a rational person whose problems are from an external source and I have always thought that taking a pill for harassment would be useless. So the first thing I did was check the gematria of #Imagine Impact because I am less familiar with that number. Then I checked it against my legal names gematria…

Oh Geez…

Here we go again… To be perfectly honest I still consider myself an amateur practitioner of the #craft but I know when I am being messed with and the simple math clearly shows that when my Nazirite name; StarlessOooBetide (total) is divided by Aripiprazole‘s (total) that I am reduced to Ron Howard’s program and #pathwork. Keep in mind that first I changed my name to escape the #pathwork of my christian name, it would appear that in response to this Ron Howard went through all the trouble of creating an entirely new company whose name is perfectly aligned to my name and medication that I have been prescribed by my doctor; that is #StarlessOooBetide (totaled) divided by #Aripiprazole (totaled) equals #ImagineImpact (totaled)… See below:

2172÷1897=1.144965735…

#StarlessOooBetide = 203/1218/751 > 203+1218+751=2172 (totaled)

#Aripiprazole = 146/876/875 > 146+876+875=1897 (totaled)

#ImagineImpact = 120/720/304 > 120+720+304=1144 (totaled)

So much for Doctor/Patient confidentiality. I am confident this is the intended angle because the corresponding elements to 11-44 are Na-Ru (that is Sodium-Ruthenium)  “Naru” according to my research means “Rope” in Finnish. Now; because Arrested Development was made to make fun of me I have done a lot of research on Ron Howard, so I know that his birthday is March 1st 1954, this is the exact day and month of Aragorn’s in the Lord of the Rings. This simple coincidence was enough to bring to mind various details about the story and I have already compared my situation with that of Sam and Frodo who capture the Gollum and for a time lead him on a length of Elvish rope. I even posted the video clip of this on facebook a few years ago and it would seem that Ron has arranged the situation so as to appear that this medication was “binding him” to my purpose. It is clearly a desperate attempt to work off of my hatred of him where presumably I would be somehow binding him simply by taking this medication. That; I admit is really out there! Potentials like this are really uncomfortable to consider but the simple math is so coincidental that it only makes sense.

Here is the thing; I dont want anything to do with Ron Howard and I dont believe I need medication. I want to get on with my life! I want to draw again, I want to storyboard and learn study computer programming. I want to be creative and not be so caught up with these “binding spells” or what ever you call them. I want to be left alone but this is difficult in situation like the Lowes job interview where I was clearly being discriminated against, or when I find out someone has gone to great lengths to acquire my personal medical information, or when personalized #graffiti keeps turning up in my neighborhoods, etc, etc, etc. Passive Harassment like this is really difficult to ignore; I admit I was the one running the calculations but there was a time when I believed I was in mortal danger and situations like that are impossible to ignore, especially when they go on for months on end! Any one of these things on its own is not a big deal, the world is full of assholes and everyone has a bad day. I live in a racist town that is very windy so people around these parts can be reluctant, I understand that. But when someone is clearly messing with you for years on end with out ever explaining why, it begins to effect ones sanity and patience. I have lost three really great jobs because of this bullshit and no one wants to take the time to understand why because the only way to “prove it” is through numbers which are tedious and annoying to work with. Its a really bad situation that wont seem to go away.

This of course validates what I have been saying all along that Ron Howard knows way too much about my personal life and the only way I know this is because of situations being devised to disrupt and impede my well-being which they “attach” to the numbers of my name(s). He could just be using them to play on my OCD but its the not knowing that makes this so irritating and so I make no claims of the authenticity or practicality of these “channels” because I only ever used gematria for fun in writing fiction/fantasy. As of late I have taken to using it as a kind of magickal self-defense which my guides have termed; “Sikhery” so as to reconcile “curses” which otherwise I may not be able to stop thinking about. I have no idea if these devices even work and from my stand point I only use them to set things straight and even things up. To be clear I dont use “curses” and cant really imagine how to go about making one because I am a writer; I only write the truth or as near to it as possible and as far as I am concerned keeping this blog is enough.

The title of this particular post is appropriate in many ways. Its gematria is very telling. In seeing Arrested Development I got a weird feeling that Ron Howard had was for some reason trying to trick me into the belief that I was supposed to be Jonbenet. As part of some schizophrenic delusion. I couldn’t really put my finger on it until now. The gematria of #Jonbenet Will Have Her Revenge on America= 363/2178/3659 and when we total these three numbers we get a value of exactly 6200. This is very telling to my situation because my slave name #Richard Horn = 116/696/363 , I cannot even fathom the level of deliberation that went into this but I highly doubt it was coincidence. What ever the case it does provide a basis in reality that Ron Howard intended to dis-inform me into believing that I myself was supposed to be a version of Jonbenet, there are other possibilities that I have uncovered as well so this is by no means the only one as I suspect Ron considered many possible outcomes he could lie about. Recently I came across another interesting number 8200 which is a branch of Israeli Military Intelligence and so naturally I compared them so see if there were any interesting results and I was pretty shocked at what I found:

6200+8200=14400

14400÷751=19.17443409

#WilliamJamesSidis=187/1122/1917

#StarlessOooBetide=203/1218/751

On a hunch I just divided 14400 by the Jewish number of my legal Nazirite name 751 and it came out as William James Sidis‘ Jewish number. This is hugely significant and I honestly have no idea what to make of this. For those who dont know William James Sidis is widely regarded as one of the top intellectuals to ever live. He was a child Prodigy and was admitted to Harvard at the age of 11. Further he is known in “Illuminati” circles as a kind of wizard, (no joke) and some film makers have pegged him as Lucifer. Thee Lucifer; on account of his raw intelligence and the magnitude and importance of his works. The Animate and Inanimate is very complicated writing with many subtle inferences and its something which requires reading and re-reading again and again. Honestly it actually took me a few years of studying it before I was confident I even got it. I have read Nietzsche and Celia Green and those can definitely be difficult but this was challenging in ways that I found myself crawling through it sentence by sentence and then second guessing myself once I thought I knew what it was about. Jewish people are generally more intelligent than non Jews because of their upbringing so I would wager that this has been planned and if it is not than it is certainly one hell of a coincidence and would certainly equate to some type of divine providence.

The number 6200 brings to mind a scripture from the Book of Amos which I have already quoted to my harassers. One of the main points the Book of Amos covers is the Sin of Samaria and given Samarium is Element 62 it fits this device quite nicely:

Amos 6 King James Version (KJV)

“6 Woe to them that are at ease in Zion, and trust in the Mountain of Samaria, which are named chief of the nations, to whom the house of Israel came!

Pass ye unto Calneh, and see; and from thence go ye to Hamath the great: then go down to Gath of the Philistines: be they better than these kingdoms? or their border greater than your border?

Ye that put far away the evil day, and cause the seat of violence to come near;

That lie upon beds of ivory, and stretch themselves upon their couches, and eat the lambs out of the flock, and the calves out of the midst of the stall;

That chant to the sound of the viol, and invent to themselves instruments of musick, like David;

That drink wine in bowls, and anoint themselves with the chief ointments: but they are not grieved for the affliction of Joseph.

Therefore now shall they go captive with the first that go captive, and the banquet of them that stretched themselves shall be removed.

The Lord God hath sworn by himself, saith the Lord the God of hosts, I abhor the excellency of Jacob, and hate his palaces: therefore will I deliver up the city with all that is therein.

And it shall come to pass, if there remain ten men in one house, that they shall die.

10 And a man’s uncle shall take him up, and he that burneth him, to bring out the bones out of the house, and shall say unto him that is by the sides of the house, Is there yet any with thee? and he shall say, No. Then shall he say, Hold thy tongue: for we may not make mention of the name of the Lord.

11 For, behold, the Lord commandeth, and he will smite the great house with breaches, and the little house with clefts.

12 Shall horses run upon the rock? will one plow there with oxen? for ye have turned judgment into gall, and the fruit of righteousness into hemlock:

13 Ye which rejoice in a thing of nought, which say, Have we not taken to us horns by our own strength?

14 But, behold, I will raise up against you a nation, O house of Israel, saith the Lord the God of hosts; and they shall afflict you from the entering in of Hemath unto the river of the wilderness.”

samaria

Matthew 27:51-53 King James Version (KJV)

“51 And, behold, the veil of the temple was rent in twain from the top to the bottom; and the earth did quake, and the rocks rent;

52 And the graves were opened; and many bodies of the saints which slept arose,

53 And came out of the graves after his resurrection, and went into the holy city, and appeared unto many.”

Starless Golightly.